Recent Obsession

So, I am obsessing of late over my stomach.  Aside from the fact that I have slimmed down in almost every other area, my belly has been getting bigger over the past few months.  I can't see how this has happened! What has changed?  My diet is a little better - although I have moments when I am completely naughty... and ok, so those "moments" sometimes last a couple of weeks.  But I always get back on the wagon.  Kind of a depressing thought, but I'm 31 next month.  All those things that I've heard from others time and time again... "when you turn 30 your body turns on you" and ya-da ya-da ya-da.  So what, I have cholesterol like a stag, I am fit and frankly, it's amazing how I pull off weighing as much as I do.  Muscle?  I doubt it.  It's this damn belly.

Thought for The Moment

Another day of summer camp at my school has just passed and I'm thinking "what have I gotten myself into?"  It has been a year of furthering my own education, full time working (with small children I should add), and generally feeling like I never stop going, mentally or physically.  I'm tired.  I'm tired of children actually.  It's not that I dislike them because I don't.  It's not that I don't light up when I see them in the morning because I do.  I'm just done.  Thankfully, at this point in my life, I can give cuddles, be with them for a time and then hand them back.  I'm sure there are plenty out there who might read this and think "how can she be a teacher and say that?", but yes, teacher's do like to have their adult time too.

We are human.  We need time to re-group, to be alone, to gather our thoughts and to get our energy back after spending around 6 hrs+ a day with them all school year.  Why then do some think that if someone enjoys children that they should want to be around them ALL the time?  I'm sure most parents would agree that although children are wonderful, there are times when you just need some me time.  Teachers can get that me time during the summer break.  I myself signed on to work 3 weeks of summer camp.  It seemed like such a good idea at the time.  We need the money for our new house.

Well, if there is anything that I've learned in my adult life (and living with my husband because he REALLY believes in that), "you make your bed, you lie in it".  It's a harsh reality but it's true.  Sometimes you've just got to push through.  On the positive side, there are no academic pressures and I did sit and make paper-bag puppets today.  There are worse things - like washing dishes in a hot kitchen or something.

"Me on the Beach"... and then I woke up.